Don’t Give Up! – Angela’s Boys

My breastfeeding journey began on May 20, 2010. My first born son, Brooks, was overwhelmingly perfect & filled my heart with the most immense love I've ever felt. When I was pregnant I thought about breastfeeding, but had the mind set of, 'I'll just see how it goes' and that was the end of it. Then he was born. I was encouraged by nurses to latch him as soon as I was able to. I would love to say it was a euphoric experience, but it wasn't. It HURT! My legs tensed up and my toes curled. Brooks had jaundice and "had" to have formula. Something overcame me that I can't explain. It made me angry to see my husband feed him and I had a total melt down. Feeding him is MY job (by breast only) and it's supposed to be something that no one else could do. It's was an intense feeling of protectiveness that took over my whole body! Luckily, the formula didn't last long. It took about 6 weeks before I was able to feed Brooks without pain. I am SO GLAD I didn't give up! We had a nursing relationship until June 9, 2011. 

 

Anderson was a surprise gender baby. My husband yelled, "IT'S A BOY!!!"; and it echoed! Again, the nurses encouraged nursing right away and as I looked down on this beautiful baby boy and watched in awe as my heart grew with even more love than I could have ever imagined, he latched. And it was AWESOME! I was immediately overcome with joy, peace, calm and so much love. Our nursing journey began on May 5, 2014 and is still going strong. He won't take a bottle or sippy cup, just Mama. I love looking in his bright blue eyes & knowing that to him, I am everything right now. One day he'll grow up like his brother and be less dependent on me. For now, I'm all he needs and it makes my heart so happy!